If you have been wondering where I went…you are not alone! So have I. Just when I thought I was starting to get back on track…I am de-railed again. I have been trying for over a month to figure out the why and purpose of my blog. It’s part of my ecourse assignment on Building a Blog You Truly Love with the marvelous and beautiful, Liv Lane. I’ve actually been stumped…almost immobilized with moving forward. Digging deep and trying to figure out the meaning in why you do things and what you want to accomplish is exhausting work. And it can be rather frustrating when you starting comparing yourself to others. But God speaks in mysterious ways and when I saw the quote below on Pinterest, I knew it was no coincidence.
I need to stop comparing myself to every other person in my class…because by doing that I’m creating self doubt and I’m wondering since I’m struggling with the why and the purpose should I even be here. And my answer is, YES, of course, I should! So today I decided to put on my big girl panties, pull up my boot straps (tie them in a knot around my waist) and get to moving. Nothing worth having is ever easy. And just because I can’t really articulate exactly what I want to accomplish through this blog, I’m not willing to just walk away from something that could become one of the joys of my life!
I am in the infancy stages of becoming a blogger. I have a lot to learn and much of that comes with practice. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. So I will continue thinking and revamping the why and the purpose and I won’t just think about my blog when I think about those things. I will think about all the aspects of my life. I only have one goal. To be better tomorrow than I am today.
Below is a little summary of things that make me happy and ultimately define who I am. I copied this from my FB page. I like it because it reminds me that joy is found in the simpliest of everyday living…it doesn’t have to be complicated or overthought. When I wrote this about myself, I didn’t spend hours perfecting it. I just typed it out…straight out of my heart.
“I love chocolate, chips and hot sauce, a good margarita, and the color green. Nothing is better than a clean house and a perfectly mowed lawn. Sitting on my back porch makes me happy. I have 2 children that I adore that are grown now. I am still in love with my husband. I am a list maker and am never too far from my spiral. I believe in God and that Jesus Christ died on the cross to pay for my sins…which is many. Riding in my convertible with the top down is one of my favorite things to do! I love and live passionately. I love candles and anything that smells good. Fall is my favorite time of year. I cry when anything touches my heart. Just about everything touches my heart. I believe in forgiveness. I have wonderful friends. I think the world was a better place when Kermit was here. I am always on a diet. And did I say I love to eat? I take lots of pictures and almost always have my camera with me. I love the smell of stargazer lillies. Red Velvet cake and Doublemint gum remind me of my grandmother. I like all kinds of music, but I seem to be stuck in the 70’s. I have to say what’s on my mind. I love all potions and lotions and am frequently referred to as diva and/or queen. I love to laugh out loud. I am very competitive. I hate checking my voicemail. My hobbies are working and shopping. I have trouble letting go. I love purses and jewelry. I think “home” is a special place. My flip flops are my favorite shoes. Luxury is a manicure and a pedicure or a nap on a Sunday afternoon. I like trying new things. I am always working on a better me…still am. I believe in peace, faith, love…and rainbows.”
I hope today that you wilI stop and think about what your purpose is. Do you know the WHY and WHO of who you are? I can feel the winds of change blowing. Can you feel them too?