And SHE has arrived! Welcome 2013! I’m so glad to see you…so thankful for this opportunity to start over.
I love the new year. Unblemished. Free of mistakes and regrets. I can’t tell you how much I want to get this year right. I didn’t write much toward the end of the year. I have always loved the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays, but I have been going through something. I don’t know if it’s a transformation due to my age, or the stage of life I’m in, or if I’m just growing and changing more into the person I’m supposed to be. But nevertheless, I definitely had some difficulty finding the fabulous in all of it. Which made me doubt the purpose of my space here (both on this blog and in this world). I AM supposed to have a purpose…I know it’s important for the content and the objective of my blog (and my own well-being) but I will be completely honest and tell you right now, I have no clue (it feels so good to just admit that). I thought I did at one time last year, but I am re-thinking everything so I’m sure 2013 will be a year of change for me.
One reason I’m so excited about this new year, is I enrolled in a new class. Did you know that a whole different universe exists inside your computer? I have met Liv Lane, Michele Morton Bergh and Jess Morrow through online classes I have taken with them (and loved and learned a bunch too), and now I’m taking Ali Edwards, One Little Word (OLW) class. It’s a year long class and for now it’s the only one I intend to sign up for, unless I decide to revisit some of the classes from last year. I don’t want to bite off more than I can chew here (which I am notorious for). My word comes from the transformation that took root last year and that I shared with you here. I have always loved the word “more” (and I still do) as I have always believed that “more” was better. But I discovered that more was not enough and hence, my word for 2013; ENOUGH. I was going to choose content, because I want to live in a world of contentment, where what I have is all that I need, but ENOUGH came and spoke to me. I think this is the first year that I did not make ANY resolutions. I only committed to this one little word.
The definition of ENOUGH is plenty. I want 2013 to be the year of plenty. One in which I worry less. One that I live in contentment with what I have and need and with a faith that what is provided is all that is needed (read that again…I have no doubt that what I need will not be provided…I have a problem with believing that what is given is enough). I started the de-cluttering phase last year and this year, I will expand upon that. Enough is really more than that…it has several intentions in my life which I will share with you along the way…actionable intentions that relate to my OLW. For January, the intention of my word is “sufficient” and for that I will start with my relationship with God. I know that for the real change to take place in my life, that I have to start at the top and that is with my heart and my spirit. I need to be saturated with God…so close to Him that I’m never without His presence. There is no better way to satisfy this longing within me than with God’s word. I will need something to hold me up and sustain me through the hard times, because there is always some hard times, especially when you start to put God first. Especially when you have good intentions. Especially when you decide to live with intention. This month I have enrolled in the She Speaks Truth (which you can find on Facebook, Twitter or at shespeakstruth.com) for a daily devotional (and really so much more, like sisterly fellowship and chatter). And I committed to daily prayer. Not prayer when I’m in a bind, or worried about an outcome, or wondering what to do or have a list of sick friends and family…daily conversation with the one who made me.
Here’s the bottom line. When I look at my life, I have all that I need to be happy. But I’m not satisfied and when I ask myself what makes me feel that way, I realize that the stuff that is missing, is not stuff that I can hold in my hand, but it’s the stuff that is in my head and my heart. I need God to come on in and do a clean sweep, de-fragment my mind and dissect my heart and set me back on track, because as I said earlier, I have no clue right now about how to get to the place I want to be.
I want to do right by this new year. She is so beautiful…undefined, but a vision in my mind (kind of how I see my future self) that offers that place of peace that I’ve been seeking. I’m excited, I’m ready to move on it, I’m in!
So do you have a word for the year? Or did you make a NY resolution? Proclaim it in the comment section below and let’s get this year started. (I love it when you people talk to me)
Happy New Year and love and happiness to you all!
And lastly, thank you to my friend Nupar for sharing the class information with me. Find her blog here. No doubt, it was ultimate fabulousness at work when I happened upon the information. 🙂