2012 proved to be a year of personal growth for me and 2013 is starting off with hard lessons to be learned too. But lessons learned mean more growth…more becoming the person that I’m meant to be. This lesson was learned early…it only took a few months. Events started happening last October that were really preparing me for what January 2013 held. These 2 simple words…they are my lesson thus far. QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
It became very apparent to me no matter how hard I worked last year that there would be some of my sales goals that I couldn’t achieve. I couldn’t reach them, because I had no control in regards to them. This was very hard for me. I was a top producer 3 years ago and now I found myself in the bottom 20%. I beat myself up, reinvented my business plan, I begged, I bargained. I didn’t make it. But I did my best and that is all that can be expected of me, right? QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
My sister recently made a life changing decision. I worried, I prayed, I hoped…all for a different outcome. But after much reflection…QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
I saw my dad calling me on my cell phone from his cell phone, which he rarely does. He left me a voicemail. As soon as I finished my client call, I listened to it. His cancer is back. What?! I thought we had gone through the hardest part. I thought we were well on our way to licking this. Realization that there is much more to this than we thought . I will pray… and I will pray hard for healing and strength and comfort for my daddy. It’s all I can do. And I don’t like it. QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
I have a close relationship with both of my kids. They are good kids. But sometimes, they still need their mother’s guidance. I need to work on the way I deliver my opinion and then let them figure it out (it’s at this time I wish my lips would just fall off). QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
I have a personal struggle in my life. One that I keep thinking I’m almost done with but I recently learned I have further to go than I thought. When I ask God “How?” or “Why?” I am reminded that I’m on the right path…just keep going. QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
You may be wondering what that means…QUIET ACCEPTANCE. My mind is typically a very noisy place. Thoughts are clashing around; the “what ifs” are lining up, refusing to take turns; I am in “how do I fix it” mode, mumbling a prayer and possibly a cuss word; mentally going over my “to do” and “don’t forget” lists…it’s a mess inside my head! QUIET ACCEPTANCE is when it all goes blank and the realization that I don’t have a choice, that I can’t fix it, that it’s beyond my control, that’s it not my decision to make kicks in. It’s the whisper of God saying Trust Me…Let Me.
Now, don’t let me fool you by thinking I have it all figured out because I don’t. And while it is a lesson learned, it’s one that I have to re-learn each day…sometimes more than once a day. How about you? Are you fretting over things beyond your control? Are you frustrated with circumstances that you can’t change? Do you find yourself waking up in the early hours of the morning with a mind that is still going full speed? If so, I invite you to a place that I have found called QUIET ACCEPTANCE. Just listen…He’s whispering those words to you, too.
I am reminded of the Serenity prayer and found the original version. It’s fabulously all about QUIET ACCEPTANCE.
God, give me the grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
by Reinhold Niebuhr